Pushing for Me

If I just keep pushing...
I don't have to think.
Just keep doing and ignoring.

If I keep pushing...
Eventually I'll drown out everyone.
I'm me guys...

A little more faith is all I ask.

I put so much into others only to be passed up.

I keep saying I'll change for me...
but lets be honest...
I still don't write enough...
I'm still over weight...
I feel like my relationship is in the toilet...
And in the end it's just me standing by the spotlight never going in.

But I found that I don't push enough for me...
I push for others and put myself on the back end....

We'll I just need to start pushing away in order to push forward...

So here I'll write again.

More walking.
More writing.

If they cant do it yourself...
Let that one cheer you on...
Sometimes all it takes is one...
Even if its not the one you want cheering...
At least someone notices the trying part.

So I'll push and push and push.

For me! 50lbs by my birthday and to congratulate myself a tattoo.

IT's a tattoo for me a tattoo for being all that I can.

Musings of a girl Pushing.