Life

I'm set.

Not set in the world, I've just made my mind up on what I wish to do with my life. When you have time off, that's all you kind of think about. What am I doing with my life? Who's doing more? Am I slacking it? Will school actually help me with my goal? Even if I have the tool's to do what I need, what am I going to do with the tools? So with so many questions and very few answers. Here, now. I'm going to do what I need to do in order to find comfort with my life.

Now the end goal of school is Photo Journalism. Not just Journalism, I want to be my own boss. Create something with my own name. What I really want out of this, is something I've always thought about. It's a zine, a magazine built on the things I know and love, the things that motivate me. Like the tittle of this blog, I want to display my muses.

I want to create a Rave Zine. I know Raves don't interest most. But what I want to do once the requited hardware is acquired, I want to document it all. I want to show the underground, the missives, the secretive the FUN! Displays of Kandi Kids, Dj's, promoters, glovers, flow artists, furry's, cosplayers, etc. I want to take pics of it all. I want to write about it all.

There's a small market for it. But the hardware wouldn't just be for that. I'd have other projects, ideas for books and documentation of everything I come across. It's the one thing since I've started this new part of my life that's stood out and screamed "DO IT NOW".

This cant just be a "Hey guys! I'm awesome and will do all this stuff," and never get around to doing it. I cant let it fall. I need to do all this that I lay out, the first sign of good money in my hand is for one thing and one thing only. The acquiring of the hardware. Till then, till school sucks me up, I will work with what I have. I will try and work my phone to post as it needs too. I may need to change my blog, I may not. But I will do what I must to stick with it.

I want my life to mean something, I want to be better. I want the end of my life to be come upon with no regrets. So as I sit writing this, I write down more and more, wanting to get it all down. Mark it as I come to conclusions.

So tomorrow, I will get up and get out. Toward the end of the day I'll travel out, maybe walk around the block and start to take pictures. I will create the worlds I need, create the magazine as I go over everything. A picture or many pictures a day. I need to get better. I need to display better. I need to be a better me.

I will be...

Musings of a girl hoping for the best